Sometimes I don't want to. I don't want to put my kids for a nap, clean the house, wake up in the morning on time. I just want to sit eternally with no end to the sitting, to give up. But then I think about what that leads to and don't want any part in that.
I tried to go off caffeine starting yesterday, nope didn't go over so well, I was sluggish and depressed all day yesterday, oh goodness I may be addicted... so to solve my dilemma I poured myself a delicious cup and yummo, how I missed thee my coffee. Perhaps some day I'll successfully go off it, but I have to much I'm trying to get done right now to focus on ditching an old friend that may not be good for me, or maybe it is, or maybe it isn't. One things for sure, the sugar isn't but I can't reduce the sugar either. Why have it at all if I can't enjoy it's bitter sweet flavor.
Maybe I could try caffeinated tea with honey, there's an idea! I doubt it though, because the flavor is a pretty big part of the experience.